MSG

well my cousin just sent me this...ESSAY type thing about MSG...i hafnt read it yet, and i *will* but man...it's soo lonngg ;_; too long in fact!

i remember learning about MSG in my younger years...>.> ...something about....making food...better...longer/lasting?

dont remember

which may be bad? but as they say "ignorance is bliss" seems like EVERYTHING these days is bad too eat...most of the time im just appreciating that i actually haf a shit load of abudant food to eat, not to name ne exampels but i kno some ppl who come to my house and eyes shine over the food i haf....lately ive been growing lots of respect for food.

i really like food.

ew i feel like im turning into one of those stereo-typical japanese heroine type girls....*tummy rumbles* oh well. ..eek! i only haf 20 mins to write everything i wanna say since keane hasta go online soon to talk to a certain SUMBODY~~~~ lol. *yummy growls* <- shutup!

argh, lately ive been trying to improve my sense of fashion/style/self-appearence. this has been going on for a while now...i want to find a balance between looking good but not looking slutty...which is hard for me cuz a lot of shirts that some girls wear look FINE on them, but on me i just look like a fat slut (damn these insanely big boobs)

often times i wish to be male =(...the whole grooming thing would be soooo much easier...and lack of boobs ++++++++++++++ OMG!! wat id give for no boobs...*shiney eyed*...and widout MUCH OTHER more depressing things......P.M.S......which, btw, since i kno u ALL want to kno............im getting soon RAWR.

*sigh* lately things have been conflicting, but i think i finally got by it....things haf been brotten <- (HAHAH OMG.....) up that has surprised me.....and the thing is itz happened before!

often times i find lots of people asking me why im with keane...or wondering about keanes and mines relationship...if we're really "close" or really "love eachother" - it's even MORE surprising, that it's just the girls who ask me this............excpet for jade-chan who is OMFG so understanding of my relationship more then ne1 else that itz kinda scary but comforting but i feel awkward asking her about it so itz like her skills are being wasted...

*breathes* (soryr keane if ur reading this!!)

i think ppl misunderstand? do i RLLY make him sound so bad?.......well there is THAT stuff....those...past...things. but IT hasnt happened in months - im very impressed! there haf been times where in the past keane woulda been SO BESERKER........but instead he's just said, "ok i understand"

i dont think ppl understand our relationship......and well YEAH it surprises me....but, ive thought about it and i guess it makes sense? keane and i are very quiet....i still remember those times when sum1 would be like "aw u said i love u to him over the phone"........well, YES, i do it a lot, a lot alot, this like the gazabillinth time ive said "i love you"............most of the times when i talk about our relationship it's only the bad stuff.....most of the time u guys see me when it's involving him im crying

: \ im sorry for this being the only impression of him....this could be, my fault............*grabbs keane by the collar.* his fault too........but he's a guy so wat do u expect? :P a lot of times when other ppl are around i tease him....i say nasty things!

but really..........he's everything to me.

*BLUSH* now u see! i hate talking about these things to u guys...i dont want...idunno, to make u guys feel awkward. =)

*sigh* my whole life is about him...and, well, he feels the same way. we've promised to live every moment for eachother, to work together to overcome ne challage, to be there for eachother when need be.

we are intimate in every way possible - and we're discovering that we love eachother more and more everyday!

:"3................how corney sounding =P but it's the truth. i think the reason why i dont say these things is because im afraid people will go..."you don't know ne thing! ur still young! ur blinded by ur infactuation"

well then....im willing to take my chances. im not giving up. never. i dont care...but, my love for him can only be described as the deepest companionship. an essence of my life so complete that im afraid sometimes i take it for granted...............if ever it left it'd be a whole in my heart........no! maybe, maybe we are kids....but, we've worked on this relationship very hard

omg i wrote so much more..but it got deleted. how depressing >.< no1 will ever understand properly iguess...

but ill say my last point strongly

WE NEVER GET BORED OF EACHOTHER! in fact everyday we get MORE EXCITED about seeing eachother *breathes*

haha why am i so adament about this...? i guess if people dont understnad...then...well, ok....and if everyone else is right, which i dont agree with.........then at least im living my life wid complete and udder contentedness!


now keane needs the computer to talk to jessica.

bai bai!